Redhotpump responds to Silicone Ritual

Our subject from the Silicone Ritual, Redhotpump has written a guest blog with his own account of the events below…

Events leading up to the Event:

I have been a long time vacuum pumper, but never have been able to make the commitment and time to it that demands to have long term effects. Over the years, I tried saline a couple times and loved the quicker fill times than vacuum pumping and the heaviness of being filled.

A thought came to mind, silicone. I tried to do some research but most of the research was all about the danger and don’t do it, it’s a matter of life or death! I even went ahead a splurge on myself and bought silicone, but with life and the fear, I was never able to move forward.

Along this path, I started exploring erotic hypnosis and discovered JackDrago’s work. Some of his files I would download, listen to, then be filled with guilt and shame and delete the file from my computer. I think I even emailed him a couple times asking for help on how to reload the files which started an online communication with Jack.

I even met him not once but twice! I even have trouble blacking out to files, but Jack got me to black out twice the first time I met him! [Jack adds that this began a long hypnotic relationship…]

Jack offered help in helping me get the silicone out of my closet and into my balls. We chatted back and forth for months trying to come with a time and make a commitment to it. We settled on Fist Fest since also interested in fisting.

As time grew closer…

My conscious was giving me fits all week, trying to make excuses of why I should not make the commitment. Luckly, a little voice kept telling me that “I must”, “I will fail to resist” and “Do It Anyway”. I was having a very hectic work week, working a 12 hour one day and working a 11 hour day and then getting in the car and driving 3 hours to get to the event.

My family was having company over the weekend and wanted me home to have “family time”. I had to be back to work Sunday am, so basically only had 1 day to inject and check out fist fest. I was exhausted after working a long day, but was able to get in the car and make the 3 hour journey. I got to my hotel after 11pm only to find that they not only lost my reservation but also had no rooms nor offered any service as far as refund for my deposit. I never had such unprofessional service checking in to a hotel. I was able to find another hotel that had a room, but I was only able to get a room for the night and it was after 1am when I go settled. I should have stayed at Parliament, but they were sold out.

The Ritual Event:

I woke up exhausted but knew that I needed to get moving – got my shower, ate, packed my things and waited for Jack to text. Once he texted, I went to check out of the hotel.

When I looked at my receipt, it was much larger than I was quoted. I asked to see a manager because I was not going to pay that. While waiting for the manager, I noticed that I was given the wrong bill. After paying the correct bill, I headed to meet Jack.

Upon meeting him, he graciously helped me get checked into the event, showed me around and introduced me to a few friends. [Like Jared Erickson above, who helped by referring a cameraman. — Jack]

Then we went to his room and started preparing for the ritual. We spent a few moments going over everything. Before we began, Jack wanted to show me a special place and say a prayer that he had shared with BeastofMarbas. This only solidified my thoughts of the injection being a spiritual event.

As we began the ritual, I felt calm and peaceful. The weeks leading up to the injection, there were some thoughts of doubt and fear and wondered if I could go thru with it. There were no thoughts of Christian guilt or shame, just a consciousness openness and ready to “do it anyway”.

The injection seemed a little more difficult than envisioned, a for a brief moment, a little fear crept in my head, what after all this time and the commitment that it’s not going to happen. I was more afraid of it not happening than it happening. The decision was made in the moment to only inject 10cc than the 100 that was available.

After the injection, went outside just wearing the chaps and vest showing off and joined the event.

After Thoughts:

Because of other events in family and work life, I started the drive back home not too long after the injection. The days that followed, I messaged the balls and everything seemed to be healing up nicely. Even though, there were several things that didn’t go as planned, I can’t be happier about how everything turned out. I have wanted to attend FF for a few years, but there is no disappointment of not participating. There will be another day for that. I have not had any thoughts of “I can’t believe I did this” nor guilt or shame.

There has been only thoughts of I am happy I did this and I look forward to the future of greater spiritual growth and injecting more silicone. “Renach tasa uberace biasa icar Marbas.”